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It’s the End of the Year As We Know It (and I Feel Fine)

Thursday, December 31st, 2009

For the past 3 or 4 years, I’ve ended the year by saying, “Boy, the past year sucked! I hope the next year is better.” It’s gotten ridiculous, yet I still maintain my optimism that the next year will be better than the preceding year.

In keeping with this tradition, I have to say, 2009 was a really difficult year. If you regularly follow this blog, you have an inkling why. If you know me personally, you have an even better idea as to why this year has been…well, sucky as all get out. The good news is, it’s ending on an extremely good note. I know it’s tempting fate/karma/Eris/whathaveyou to say this, but I really do think 2010 will be a better year for me and the people I close to me.

So, with all due respect 2009, fuck off and die in a fire. And 2010? You’re on notice. If this isn’t a good year, we’re going to have words? Got it?

Happy New Year, everyone!

I’m as Excited as a Kid on Joshmas

Thursday, December 24th, 2009

This is it. Forty. The Big 4-0.

In a lot of ways, I don’t feel 40. I haven’t found any grey hairs. I still get pimples. I get back pain, but that’s been true for at least the past 10 years. I still read comics, I still watch cartoons, I still play with Legos, I still daydream about being a superhero or a mad scientist.

But I also feel like I’ve been going through a mental and emotional growth spurt lately. I feel like I’m seeing myself and other people with clearer vision. Dammit, I feel like I’m growing up–in a very good way.

Change is inevitable and unstoppable. You can run alongside it and dance with it or you can let it drag you along, kicking and screaming. Me? I’d much rather dance.

Happy Solstice!

Monday, December 21st, 2009

Light a candle against the darkness. Now we all start heading back towards the light.

Jive Turkey Talk

Thursday, November 26th, 2009

This is kind of a strange Thanksgiving for me. Lots of change going on in my life. Because of that, I feel it’s especially important for me to give thanks and acknowledge all the good in my life.

I’m thankful for my daughter, Morgan. She’s the light of my life, always in my thoughts and my heart. I’m the luckiest guy in the world because I get to be her dad.

I’m thankful that Julie and I have been so patient and supportive of each other in this crazy time. We’re both doing our honest best to reevaluate our relationship without blaming ourselves and each other for things that aren’t anyone’s fault, while also taking a good, hard look at ourselves. It isn’t easy, but we’re doing it, and I’m honestly glad we have each other in our lives.

I’m thankful for all of my amazing friends and family, both near and far. You all enrich my life in so many ways.

And I’m so incredibly thankful that I get to live in this crazy, colorful, cool, wonderful, mysterious universe. It’s a strange and beautiful world. Let’s keep it that way.

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!

Life Changes

Friday, August 7th, 2009

This blog has been silent for a while. I’ve had a lot on my mind and a lot going on in my personal life of late, which is mainly why I haven’t been posting. I debated whether or not to post about it, simply because this is a complex situation, difficult to explain well in a blog post. But I also can’t pretend my life isn’t changing, so…

My wife, Julie, and I are separating. I won’t go into the details here, because without the proper context and without lengthy explanations, it’s difficult to explain why and have it really make sense. I suppose it’s basically for the same reasons other couples separate. We’re still living together right now, but I’m looking for my own place and we’re beginning to disentangle our finances and possessions. Yes, our daughter, Morgan, knows and she’s actually taking all of this incredibly well.

We now return to our regularly scheduled blogging.

Kings of the Wild Frontier

Friday, June 26th, 2009

I was 7 years old when Elvis Presley, the King of Rock ‘n’ Roll, died. I still remember hearing it on the news. Elvis’ music hadn’t had much of a direct impact on me, but I knew who he was. Everyone knew who Elvis was. And his death was an utter shock, a moment of frozen time and disbelief. As time has gone by, I haven’t really ever been an Elvis fan, but I still have to acknowledge the cultural impact of his life and death.

Michael Jackson, the King of Pop, died yesterday. He was older than Elvis when Elvis died, but not by much. I was never a huge Michael Jackson fan. I never owned Thriller or any of his other albums. Like most people, I made jokes about Jackson’s strange life and behavior. But as someone who grew up in the ’80s, I’d be lying if I said Michael Jackson had no impact on me, and I really did like a number of his songs. Like Elvis, Michael Jackson impacted everyone. And his death is an utter shock. I can barely believe he’s gone.

These two kings, Elvis and Michael, lived strange lives that just got stranger. They were twisted, tortured, abused and abusive, living in baroque bubbles of unreality. Is this what it takes to be a king in pop culture? Maybe. Despite the accusations of terrible, abusive, possibly criminal behavior, I feel sorry for these two men. They led sad, carnival-mirror lives that took them from this world at an early age. At the same time, they touched–and continue to touch–millions of people all over the world in brilliant ways.

Pop culture is a funny thing.

Renewals

Saturday, June 6th, 2009

Happy 35th Birthday, Sonya Walger and Danny Strong! Oh, and my beautiful wife, Julie. Happy Birthday, sweetheart!

We’ve been celebrating Julie’s birthday off and on this past week, because tonight she’s accompanying me to the Loretto reunion. Loretto was a private school here in Kansas City with a very liberal, openminded, flexible K-12 school that I went to for 5th-8th grades. While I had as much pre-teen/teen angst as anyone, going to Loretto was overall a fantastic experience. It closed in the summer of 1984, while I was off on summer vacation. I never got to really say good bye to the school or my friends. Reuniting with them recently and renewing our friendships has made me positively giddy.

Julie’s birthday + Loretto reunion = SUPER MEGA AWESOME WEEKEND!

Laboring Under Misconceptions

Saturday, April 11th, 2009

I’m sure I have been guilty on occasion of complaining, “I didn’t go to library school to do this!” I know I’ve heard coworkers say something similar. This being something that at the time seemed trivial and simple, nothing like what we studied in grad school: clearing printer jams, unclogging toilets, sorting donated books, cleaning up vomit, chasing horny teenagers out of secluded bookstacks, and so on and so on. I went to library school and studied reference materials, collection management, cataloging, theories of information. I got a Master’s degree, for crying out loud! Surely such tasks as these are beneath me, right?

Well, here’s the thing. I went to library school to make libraries my career. And sometimes library work is clearing printer jams, unclogging toilets, sorting books, cleaning up vomit and harrassing horny teenagers. That work isn’t beneath me, it’s all part of the job, regardless of how much student loan debt I’ve racked up, regardless of what letters I have after my name. The abstract ideals and ethics of librarianship are all well and good, but if printers are jammed, toilets are overflowing and there’s puke on the floor, nobody gives a good goddamn about successful reference transactions.

And this is beyond libraries. Whatever job you have, whatever amount of schooling you have, work sometimes involves crawling around in dust and grime, cleaning up other people’s messes, doing repetitive and boring work, doing work that, in all honesty, a trained chimp could do. It’s all important. None of it is trivial. And if you think some work is really beneath you…well, I’d say you need your diaper changed and a new bottle of warm milk, because you’re clearing not mature enough to handle adult labor. You’re insulting the good people who regularly do such work. To riff off of Oscar Wilde, some of us are looking at the stars, but we are all in the gutter. And we all need to do our part to keep the gutter clean.

Markerstone

Wednesday, February 25th, 2009

Today is the birthday of my beautiful, brilliant daughter. She’s 12 years old today. I am so proud of her, and I love watching her grow up into such a terrific person. Happy Birthday, Morgan!

Kissing 2008 Goodbye

Wednesday, December 31st, 2008

So, it’s the end of another calendar year. Well, good riddance! 2008 has been a tremendously trying year for the most part, and I’m not sorry to see it go. On the bright side, Barack Obama was elected President, and Julie and I seem to have found medication that helps our mental states. Otherwise, I’m optimistically looking forward to 2009. It doesn’t have to be a brilliant year, but I’d like it to be better than 2008 was.

Happy New Year, everyone!


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